Hi there… It’s me, Hoot. your full time friend and part time fool. I spoke to an Alanon friend the other day and she told me that, sadly, her son had gone back out after two years sober. She said he was living in a recovery home now, has another job and is trying to find sobriety that will stick!! I had the privilege of working with her son and in spite of the set back, the positive that has come out of all this is, he’s showing up where he’s surrounded by those in recovery and he’s soaking it up.
I told her how it took me years before I finally surrendered, completely. If we’re able to learn from “going back out” and don’t kill ourselves or someone else, it can be and often is, a teaching experience. My sponsor told me once that I was in danger of losing the importance of having s sobriety date, and that one day, it won’t matter any more. That stuck. I didn’t want to lose the importance of what my sobriety date meant to me. I was so deep into self loathing and lack of respect for myself, I finally threw in the towel. Thanks, for certain, my Higher Power.
It’s a story I’d like to tell you one day. Learn, but realize, you are playing with death when you go back out. It is that serious. I wanted to tell you this story because my Alanon friend is just frazzled that her son’s drinking, in spite of all he knows, talks him back into the bottle time after time. Alcohol – Deep patience.
Love you all,
In the early days of my recovery, I couldn’t stay sober. I’d get 90 days of sobriety or maybe even more, then finally six months. Cause for celebration! Out I went, drunk and sick. My sponsor told me “You don’t want to quit drinking.” I denied it, but deep down, I knew he was right. I’d get drunk then come back, dragging my drunken butt in to hide behind the apron of mother AA.
Getting sober isn’t a matter of just quitting drinking. It has to come from, as it says in the 5th chapter off Alcoholics Anonymous, from an HONEST desire to stop drinking. Not because a few days before Christmas you got drunk again and screwed up your family’s enjoyment of the holidays.
Right now, you may be feeling stronger after the drunk of a few days ago. So, now is a good time to get drunk. “No, wait! One more day. By that time most of the wounds I inflicted on me and my family over the holidays won’t be so painfull.” It’s amazing how the next drunk has a way of completely wiping clean the pain of that last drunk!
Don’t B.S. yourself. You either want sobriety or you don’t. I know what it’s like to want to get drunk. There were times when nothing would stop my compulsion to drink, not even an AA meeting. I would hate myself, but I knew that as soon as the meeting was over, so was my sobriety. It’s a continuous nightmare. It only gets worse, never better.
Alcoholism is a disease that tells you don’t have a disease, all the while pushing you further down the ladder. “This time will be different, than my last drunk.” And so, the cycle continues until you have lost everything and even maybe, your life. Alcoholism is a progressive disease AND it only gets worse, never better.
Drinking less, eating before you drink, not drinking until your work is done and so many other attempted escapes from the ferocity of alcohol will only delay the inevitable. Wow! Drunk again, how’d that happen?
Listen, I love you all because I know how bleak things can get. Just stay sober today, go to an AA meeting and don’t worry about tomorrow. One day at a time.
Oh, and revisit the video in the blog before this one. It may change your life. Oh, by the way. Smoking a joint then getting behind the wheel increases your chance of having an accident by as much as 50%. It’s true.!!
God Bless you my brothers and sisters.
(Reuters) – Olympic silver medalist skier Jeret “Speedy” Peterson has committed suicide near Salt Lake City. Peterson, 29, was found with a self-inflicted gunshot wound on Monday night, shortly after he called emergency dispatch to say he was going to kill himself.
He was a silver medalist in the men’s freestyle aerials competition at the 2010 Winter Games in Vancouver, Canada.
Peterson’s body was found beside his vehicle on a road just outside Salt Lake City. Police said he left a suicide note, but they declined to reveal the contents of the message.
Peterson’s death on Monday came three days after the Olympic athlete was arrested in Idaho on suspicion of misdemeanor drunken driving. He was released from the Blaine County Jail in Idaho after posting $500 bail.
He failed three field sobriety tests, including a walk and turn and a one-leg stand, according to a police report.
Peterson pleaded not guilty in paperwork filed by his attorney to the charge of driving under the influence and the speeding citation.
Peterson gained the nickname “Speedy” because coaches thought he resembled the cartoon character “Speed Racer” when wearing his helmet. He invented his signature jump the “Hurricane,” a five-twist and three-flip maneuver that landed him the silver medal in Vancouver.
Peterson’s behavior at times got him in trouble with the law and sports officials. In 2006, he was sent home from the 2006 Olympic Winter Games in Torino, Italy, after a fight, according to the U.S. Ski and Snowboard Association.
“Speedy’s” death, on the heals of Amy Windehouse’s death reminds me of what some old drunk told me years ago about alcohol being an equal opportunity destroyer.
If you’re like “Speedy,” Amy and me, find yourself in a little trouble, often. It’s time for a self analysis.
Do something about it before you waste away your life like me and millions of others who have our disease.
God rest “Speedy” and Amy’s souls.
Robin Wms – Marijuana – click on Airchecks and Production at mynameishoot.com for Robin Williams as he talks marijuna.
Colorado and California lead the nation in marijuana legalization with “weed” clinics in abundance. As a result of this apparent relaxation of the laws governing marijuana sales and cultivation, the discussion among alcoholics is, “well if it’s not illegal, then it might be okay…” One guy recently said he lost 6 years of sobriety trying “skank” and had a mental meltdown:
“My doctor tells me that my use of cannabis contributed largely to my mental health problems. I thought that because I had been off the booze for six years that I was OK. I was wrong.” — Justin C.
I tried the “weed to succeed” program and even considered Marijuana’s Anonymous. Those meetings last 3 hours or 30 minutes, whichever comes first — I joke. I can’t remember much about 1997, but I can tell you I was stoned every day, and was constantly one hit away from tilt. I saw one movie that year 3 times, and still can’t recall large chunks of it.
Paranoia, doomsday syndrome and depression became a way of life for me, but I finally gave it up and was blessed with sobriety. For me, it was just another escape from reality and a dangerous road to go down because it weakened my resolve to not drink. Not surprisingly, I went back out, which means I went back to drinking.
If you have a drinking problem, you have a drinking problem. All the easier softer ways, will only delay your recovery and could, of course, lead to even worse consequences.
God bless and good luck my friends,
After living through forty years of ugly, awful, violent, sickenly embarassing alcoholism, I can tell you I have seen the most significant video on DUI I have ever seen. If you or someone you know has a drinkiing problem, SIT DOWN or MAKE THEM SIT DOWN to view this video.
Anyone who views this video will almost certainly, know they have just seen a LIFE CHANGING event.
I don’t mean to harp on you about alcoholism, but I do mean to find the evidence someone needs to make a decision about whether or not they should do something about their drinking.
Unfortunately, this time of year between Thanksgiving and New Year’s, is a very dangerous period for alcoholics and their families. I ruined a lot of seasons for my family, either by not being there for them, or being there but, not all there. Then, of course, there are the dangerous ramifications of being on the road… Drunk!
There couldn’t be a better gift for you and your family, than sobriety. Easily said, but not so easily done. So, now is the time to take advantage of my 100% off sale on sobriety. Give me 90 days of AA meetings and if you’re still not satisfied and think you have to drink, I’ll personally refund all your misery.
At www.mynameishoot.com/ resources and links page, you’ll find a variety of ideas to help you get through the holidays. If you’re anxious about Thanksgiving, Christmas or the biggest night of drinking OF ALL, New Years, now is the time to either quit drinking or put a few well known tips to work, that may help keep this time of year, safe for you and others.
Personally, I tried everything I could to keep drinking, and never considered not driving, or not drinking over the holiday period. So think about being honest with yourself. If you have decided to drink anyway, make your intentions known and try to find a designated driver. Being more responsible during this time of year will at least show your friends and family that you’re doing something about your drinking.
Holiday Tips from Others on www.about.com/alcoholism
Visitors to the Alcoholism site at About.com over the years have shared their personal tips on dealing with the pressures of the Holiday Season. Click on their names to read their suggestions. More holiday ideas are listed in Part II.
The holidays are supposed to be a happy time, there many ways to have fun without drinking and have a safe and sober holiday.
For those you know who are in recovery – to encourage them through the holidays – there are many online recovery gift shops available where you can find that special gift for that special person.
I don’t know how I survived in my drunken world. Everything around me was crumbling. Alcoholism is a fatal illness in more ways than one. When someone you know appears to have a drinking problem,” I mean no disrespect when I say, “Run as fast as you can and don’t look back!!” That is number one.
Once you’ve had the requisite “talk” and he/she says he/she will do something about it, that’s when you (2) must demand to know exactly what he/she intends to do to stop drinking. Of course, unbeknownst to you, he/she may, at first, go underground wi th his/her drinking. So there will likely be more out-of-town business trips, for secret drinking. No one will know. No harm no foul, right? When you find out, you break-up, (3) or threaten to. Year in and year out, that will be the scenario you’ll exist under. (refer to number one recommendation)
The alcoholic is very crafty and will give you a variety of reasons causing him/her to drink. Job pressure usually tops the list. “It’s just a passing phase; I’ll cut back, maybe if I find a job in some other town, I’ll be okay.” Greener pastures. The alcoholic is constantly tries to outrun his self, but when he/she gets to the greener pasture, the old drunk shows up.
You need to know what to do if your loved one is a problem drinker. If you think he/she is a problem drinker, he/she probably is. You MUST KNOW WHAT TO DO..! Find Alanon on my resourses page at mynameishoot.com. This is a take-no-prisoners illness and you need to take it as seriously as you can. I don’t mean to be so dark, but I have to. Alanon is for the non-drinker in an alcoholic family. You’ll quickly learn what others have done and are doing to survive in an alcoholic environment.
God bless you my beautiful friends. If you’re suffering, I have some solutions. Send me a note; it’ll be just between you and me. Info@mynameishoot.com
Steve’s no stranger down at the station house. All he wanted is to get some oysters down on the corner. He was “Fixen” to do so when the long arm of the law, interceded.
Should I cut down on my drinking? Or Quit?
With fall here, screaming kids back to school and Labor Day behind us, it might be a good time to assess whether or not you’re drinking too much. The dangers of not knowing where you stand on the “Drunk O Meter,” could be catastrophic. You could lose everything; your family, kids, job and worse yet, your life or someone else’s life. The thing about alcoholism, as we say in my recovery program, is that it is the only disease that tells “you don’t have a disease.”
Here are a few things to consider: First, visit my site www.mynameishoot.com, then do a little self evaluation. If you have been drinking at a level that is considered high risk or heavy drinking, usually described as five or more drinks in one sitting, then you may want to consider making a change to your drinking pattern. — Or quit altogether. But which is the best choice for you? Should you try moderating your alcohol consumption, or should you try to quit?
Many people do learn to moderate their drinking and are successful in returning to a low risk drinking pattern. There are support groups for those who are trying to cut down or moderate their drinking. One of the best resources I’ve found, covering all aspects of drinking is, www.about.com/alcoholism.
When Cutting Down Doesn’t Work
If you try to cut down, but find that you cannot stay within the limits that you set for yourself, it may be best to quit instead. One of the main reasons that people decide to quit drinking and seek help to do so is because they find they have lost the ability to control the amount they drink; and that is the description of alcoholism!!
You are the person who is in the best position to make the decision of whether to cut down or quit. If you can consistently drink one or two drinks and no more, then you may be able to cut down to a low-risk drinking pattern. But if you find that those first two drinks usually trigger an urge for more, chances are moderation is not an option.
When Quitting Is Advised
There are other reasons that quitting drinking may be a better option for you than moderation or cutting down, according to the National Institute on Alcohol Abuse and Alcoholism. Please visit “Resources and links” at www.mynameishoot.com to see what may work best for you. Completely anonymous. Our thanks to www.about.com/alcoholism for the many resources they provide to those of us who have been dealt the alcoholism card.
I love you guys,
Main Ingredient – click After all the years I’ve been working on changing the way I behave in a sober world, I’m still amazed at how often I awkwardly manage my life. The Main Ingredient, with Cuba Gooding Jr.’s father as lead singer, sang it: “Everybody Plays the Fool, sometime.” When I played that song on the radio, my comment was, “Yeah, but I just wish my turn wouldn’t come up so often.”
Even though I laugh about it, it’s an ongoing feature of my personality. Now I come from a long line of drunken odd balls so you’d think I’d have a leg up on strange behavior, but I don’t. Sometimes I have to ask my wife, what it was I did or said that made the situation worse. Regularly it’s the expression on my face that trumps what’s coming out of my mouth. Inside, I’m not really all that upset. Which leads me to believe I don’t communicate as well as I should. It’s time to Think, Think, Think..!
I began drinking when I was a boy, so my brain didn’t mature like most humans’. It’s not an excuse as much as it is a caution sign for me to watch-it when I’m entering the intersection of pissed and justifiable Anger. There ain’t no such thing for an alcoholic and it is here that I need to take a deep breath and remember to Take it Easy. So now you have examples of how two of our sayings, plastered on the walls of AA, came about. At least for me anyway.
Thanks for caring